Apparently the lip and eyebrow placement in each image really capture movement in a series of still images. 

So as is common with my mental conditions and not receiving adequate help and support, my art is often damaged and stained. As I'm thinking about how much I want to resist the digital medium, my latest work already got oil stains on the first frame in progress, and I have no idea how they got there. I'm under the impression if I had actual care and support, these sort of problems caused by my brain injury or mental illness would be prevented. Because family, society and government are such cold, selfish assholes, it appears switching to digital would be a better method of preserving my art and not getting stained, water damaged, etc, although it would only exist in the ether, the flow of information, in prints. I tend to put a lot of effort into my traditional art because the camera doesn't do the actual art piece justice, and I'd like my originals to be valuable. Plus they can't be stolen online if I don't photograph and post completed works. 

Brain injury or mental illness observation: the difference in these two frames, much like the differences in dimensions between frames in my first animation, is reminding me how much either my brain injury or mental illness affects my perception. This happens often with my drawings, my dimensions on paper will be askew from the image I'm drawing. I wonder if it's related to me not seeing those packages at the door after walking up and checking, or asking for help to find items at True Value that were 2 feet away from me, at eye level

Slipping into another episode. Naturally the master and senior student are completely oblivious to it, just write it off to tiredness or not being mindful, as the senior student condescendingly put it, very smug and pompous. But that's one of the appeals of moving in here is it'll make me stronger. I'm now under the impression they like insulting me, that a huge part of my tutelage here will be them trying to break down my ego. They insult me and are rude to me, whereas I have been neither to them, at least not intentionally. But this is a good exercise in stoicism. No matter how much they insult, demean and degrade me, I must not let it get under my skin. I'm under the impression they see the world a certain way, and are so deeply entrenched in this perspective they view different perspectives and opinions as lowly. One aspect this manifested in today was noticeable in my cognitive process: the senior student has been telling me often that I talk too much, rather rudely. He'll often interrupt me as I'm talking, never allowing me to finish my point. Derailing my train of thought. Today the master gave each of us a section and wanted us to individually answer each section. I was struggling just to listen. But the turn before mine went on and he looked at me and said "sorry that went on a long time, I didn't mean to cut into your time to talk." To which the senior student scoffed and laughed smugly and condescending. I responded no problem, but because my brain was slipping into episode, I struggled to answer the question or find words when it came to my turn. I tried my best, and they insulted it, cut me off, and gave the answer. Which was for the best. Then it came time to chant and I didn't want to be in the room, let alone chant. I didn't want to raise my voice at all given that I was mocked and insulted for speaking. But I forced myself to get over it, embrace their insults, and chant with them anyhow. So while I'm in episode, I get insulted instead of helped. It's preparing me for the real world I suppose. It would be so much nicer if they actually understood what it's like to have my condition and go through what I go through, but they'd probably just see that as weakness and insult me more.

Not the best smoke I've ever done but I won't get good with new mediums if I'm not willing to risk mistakes. However I think I can make this work in the long run of the animation 

Shading was definitely much faster with the markers. Figure the more I'll use them, the better I'll get. Which also means I'll be able to pump out animation faster!

I think I'm going to put my current animation project on pause and possibly even scrap it. Mainly because I've recently got a smartphone tripod to stabilize camera shots, and I've realized my placement of my dancing whore of Babylon hasn't been consistently centered in 4 directions (equal distance from all 4 sides of the paper) with each drawing. I have amazing ideas on what I want to do with this animation and don't want to give too much away until it's complete, but the intention is for it to address multiple things simultaneously, so it can be interpreted politically and apolitical, while still being fine art.

Perhaps this desire to create a pointilism animation is madness. But I don't think others realize the depths of my madness, and how powerful it can be.