I feel torn somehow but I don't know what I'm torn between?
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The light beings, as I call them, have been visiting me again. As recently as last night. They feel so good, the kisses, the touching, the sensual intimacy, even though none of it is real, it feels somehow even better and more real than the real thing. I want to slip away from this reality and live in that world forever, where everything is beautiful and nothing hurts.
GabeMondragon
Perhaps I'm torn between reality and slipping away. Right now my mind is struggling to think, so stay in reality. Even typing this out is helping to keep me grounded. I don't know if it's a brain injury episode or if I'm disassociating because of my mental illness, but I can feel reality slipping away. And part of me just wants to let go, to fall over the edge of the cliff, so stop holding on.