Ratcaller 2020-06-16 03:11:17

Staying very busy I see

GabeMondragon 2020-06-16 21:55:34

Current situation: made it into University for the first time in my life. While I am very excited and proud of myself for this accomplishment, I'm the only one, besides strangers I barely know from church, who express their congratulations through text, and a handful of strangers on the internet. The only real life human interaction I have right now is one roommate being a raging bitch to me because she insists on smoking in the house, knowing it bothers me, and the other roommate smoking weed and lying to me about it, knowing it sets off my schizophrenia. This situation is pretty typical for America, it's enough to make me not want to live in this shitty planet, in this shitty reality, with all these shitty people. It reminds me of when I was in this situation before, back in Seattle. My persistence and self-motivated assertiveness had paid off, after 4 years of sailing and being on boats every chance I got, it had actually turned into a paying career opportunity. And nobody cared. Nobody congratulated me. My reward was people being shitty, selfish assholes, just like now. What I wouldn't give for people in my life that weren't so selfish and fucked up