Tried drawing just now. Mind was sludge, refused to work. Refused to di what I told it to do. Drawing was three year old skill level. I don't know what's going on with my head, I wish I did. Or I wish family, society and government didn't suck so horribly bad that someone would help me to fix whatevers wrong with my head. Drinking an energy drink now. I don't want to do the caffeine, I want to function without it, but I've already spent so many hours mentally dysfunctional, only capable of lying in bed, doing nothing more than games and apps on my phone. So I drank the energy drink. Doesn't seem to be completely propelling me through the barrier, but I am drawing again. This time simple creases in fabric. Suggestions of lines with light shading.